Saturday, August 5, 2017

Chad + Morgan 4 Ever

It's wedding season. More specifically, it's Newman wedding season. Justin's cousin Mark has three sons getting married within the next year, two within almost a month of each other. We kicked off the first of the three family weddings in early August & although each will be special in their own way, a little someone had a big role in this one. Logan was asked to be Chad and Morgan's ring bearer. He was a little hesitant at first since he didn't know what the job entailed but we continued to talk about and I shared that I was a flower girl for my uncle when I was little too. By the time the wedding week approached he was fully on board and digging his new threads. 

Not only was Logan acting as their ring bearer but Justin was handling the food at the rehearsal dinner--with the help of his mom & I took on the desserts. While Logan, Janet and I attended the rehearsal, Justin and Kaden headed to the park and got everything set up for when the guests of honor and their family and friends arrived. The weather for Friday evening was gorgeous--who would have thought that with a wedding being held in the beginning of August. 

Saturday's weather, was a little different but Chad and Morgan didn't let that RAIN -- pun intended -- on their parade. They were getting married and it was such a beautiful service and we were so lucky to have witnessed two young people devoting their life to another and promising to help get each other to Heaven so they can live together forever in the kingdom of God. 

It rained for the most of the morning but as we were headed out we got a little bit of a relief. And since Logan was all decked out, Kaden asked to bring out his bow tie too. I happily started digging through drawers looking for it---I mean, could they be cuter?

Speaking of cute---check out the flower girl. Eli and Logan hit it off from the get go and at the reception she decided to join our table so she could sit with the boys. You never know, maybe in 20 years these two will be on the Today show sharing their story about how they were in a wedding all those years before together...I mean, just the cutest. & when the moment counted, he grabbed her little hand and led her down the aisle. 

The rain held off for the entire ceremony and for most of the pictures that followed. Even allowed us to get to the reception and take a few family pictures before it started coming down & it came down but no one cared. We were all having way too much fun dancing the night away. 

It comes as no surprise that the dance floor was packed all night, Chad and Morgan are such an awesome couple that you just knew their friends and family would be just as awesome. & let me tell you, not only did they ask Logan to be part of their special day, they went above and beyond to make him feel special. His gift, a littler handkerchief that had his name embroidered in it. Morgan told Logan that from the first time she met Chad he carried around a handkerchief for her in case she ever started to cry, whether happy tears or sad ones. It was with this small handkerchief that she knew there was something special about Chad. I love that they chose to give Logan one & I hope he remembers just how meaningful a gesture such as this can be. 

The morning of the wedding day Logan had a present for Chad. Chad had a present for Logan. Logan had wrapped up a framed Green Monster that he had created a few years back that Chad commented on wanting when I was changing out decor at home. I was certain he had forgot about making the comment but he and Morgan finally had THEIR home together & it needed some wall decor so Logan let him in on the story. & Chad, well he had some fun socks for Logan to wear and they just happened to match his socks too. Logan was stoked to show me. & as he came to the end of the aisle, both he and Chad pulled up their pant legs to show off their socks and then gave a fist bump before Logan found his way to back to Justin and I. 

The boys were a little shy in the beginning when it came to the dance floor but Logan insisted that he would dance if "My House" by FloRida was played and Chad immediately requested it. It came over the speakers and Logan held up his end of the deal & from that moment on, it was hard to get him or Kaden off the dance floor. They booth learned Cupid's Shuffle and The Wobble, and everyone was eating them up. Finally it was time to say goodnight and as sad as it was for the evening to come to and end, these two little boys needed to get to bed. I was so proud of this little man and the job he did. He knocked it out of the park, just like everything else he does. 

Monday, July 31, 2017

July Extras

He hardly ever naps but on this day, he napped with me. 

Despicable Me 3 - in 3D

Brodi got "Egged On"

Kaden and Kendall--he loves little babies.

Laser Tag outing for the Aces

Lilly turns FOUR!

We got Miss Leah for a little while this summer again.

Baseball Camp at DBats 

The annual school shopping trip and pic is in the books. Hello 1st & 2nd grade!

I took their electronics away.

Intense game of Uno--Brodi & Kaden vs. Me and Stoli

Friday, July 28, 2017

One On One Time

The boys are close in age. Like real close, well not as close as my brother and I at 16 months apart but still, just 20 months apart. Plus, they're boys. So that means, what one likes, the other likes. What one wears, the other wears. What one does, the other does. The order doesn't matter, they follow each other's lead. & we wouldn't want to have it any other way---built in best friend for life.

Someone to play catch with in the front yard. Someone to challenge in a cannon ball contest at the pool. Someone to play make believe and build forts with. To hide from Mom and Dad with. There is always someone right by their side.

Which means there is also someone to always argue with. To get into wrestling matches with. To point fingers at when we question them on something. To get into trouble with. Yup, always someone right by their side. For better or for worse. & over the first few months of the summer it became very apparent that while these two love each other very deeply, they needed a little space from one another too. So I picked up the phone, called their Grammy and asked for a couple dates where she could take one of the boys for a few days allowing Justin and I to have one on one time with the other and then a few weeks later we could switch. Being the wonderful Grammy that she is, she of course said yes.

First up, Kaden with Grammy & Logan with us. I dropped Kaden off at Grammy's on my way to work for a few days that was destined to be full of fun. I was instructed to bring his bowling ball and a swimsuit---he was excited when heard that. As for Logan, we gave him a few choices as to what he wanted to do with us and he spent the day pondering but when it came time to decide he wanted Top Golf.

I won't lie, it was a little weird only have one kid with us but boy, did Logan talk our ears off. We not only hung at Top Golf for a few hours but we grabbed a slushy from QT (his choice) on the way home--nice cashier gave it to us free & then we snuggled up for some Big Brother--his favorite (& mine too) show right now.

While we were hanging with Logan, Kaden was getting the royal treatment with Grammy. They bowled, got dessert at McDonald's where he got to play, and spent 4+ hours at the pool---with a high dive. I wasn't sure how he would do with the high dive because he had only recently got to experience a diving board at my Aunt Kelly's house but Grammy said he pushed the fear aside and took a leap of faith. I don't know if I would have believed it without the pictures and videos she shared with us--which cracked me up. I mean, holding his nose with both hands and eyes clenched closed as tight as they could be.

The following week it was Logan's turn to head to Grammy's for a couple days---really, just one night was spent. Grammy had the same agenda for Logan---bowling & time at the pool. & for some reason it was a little harder for me to let Logan go, this may have been his first time spending the night with Grammy all by himself & I just couldn't wrap my head around how he got this big.

It was a little rainy during Logan's time but thankfully no plans needed to be changed. They bowled on Thursday and then Friday spent the afternoon at the pool. Logan not only jumped off the high dive, he worked on perfecting his flip off the low dive and went down the slide about 100 times.

Each time I called to say hello it was though he wanted nothing to do with me but why would he, he was being spoiled by his Grammy. & although my ego was a little hurt, I was so happy that he was having the best time.

For Kaden's one on one time we had a little project to complete. A mom of a friend of his from school hosts Pinterest Parties and it just so happened that this specific party was a parent/child party. We would pick out a design and turn it into string art. Of course I already had an idea in my head but when we got there, Kaden had something completely different in mind. At first I tried to "persuade" him to go my route but then I remembered this was HIS time & gave over control to him. In order for him to be proud of & love his work, he needed to make the decisions. So, wiener dog on a pink board it was. He sanded, painted, hammered & strung string...

& then we watched Big Brother before heading off to bed.

Our one on one time was exactly what everyone needed and the best thing about it all--the hug they each gave us & each other when they got home. It didn't matter which one wasn't home, it just felt incomplete. Like something, well someone, was missing. I know it's important to give them this time with us and with Grammy but it was so nice to being able to hug them both at the same time. Added bonus that they have played pretty nicely ever since----it won't last though. After all, they're not only brothers but best friends too.

Sunday, July 23, 2017

Another Month. Another Lake Trip

We were making the trek back to the lake house for another weekend on the water but this time, we had some pretty special friends coming with us. The Shafers!

The Shafers actually have a lake house too but somehow we convinced them to come check out ours---but in return, we promised a weekend at theirs too.

Saturday was hot. The water was warm but thankfully it was still refreshing. The boys were up and ready to be on the water by 8 but Jenn and I had a different idea--we told the kids that we were taking the paddle boards out for a quiet spin and then would be back for them. The wind was strong but the water was still fairly calm & our time on the water was well spent.

When we returned the boys were ready. They flipped. They dived. They twisted and turned. They each got their shot at the paddle boards--with and without an adult. It was a solid 8 hours of sun and fun.

Even Stoli got to enjoy the lake this time around. It's one of her favorite places to be--she loves the hot, hot dock and watching the boys play. Not a big fan of the water but every once in a while she'll dip her toes in. 

Sunday morning was a little bit later of a start but nonetheless still begun with a mom paddle boarding outing before turning the kids lose. I mean, look at these knuckleheads. 

More paddle boarding was done, followed by more jumping and diving. They went as hard as they could for as long as we allowed them to ensuring there would be long naps taken on the way home but they had something different in mind & were still going strong when we arrived back in KC and wanted to head to the pool. So we obliged. It was a wonderful quality family weekend, spent with some very wonderful friends. Friends that seem like we have known them forever and a day but truth be told, really only for about a year. Funny how God does that. Strategically places friends in your life when you need them most.  

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

A Starting Point

We'll be the first to tell anyone that Kaden has always had more energy than most kiddos his age. He's always been a little more impulsive. What we have spent the last year and some change trying to figure out is, how much of this can be chalked up to him being a 7 year old. A 7 year old boy. 

We've done our research. We've met with our pediatrician and discussed his behavior and energy. We've implemented a few things here and there but at the end of the day, we were just seeing more and more symptoms of a child who may have ADHD. So we continued conversing with his pediatrician and she suggested that we take the Vanderbuilt assessment & see what comes of it. Now, the first time we took this assessment he was in kindergarten & in the end, he showed a little elevation in hyperactivity and inattention but nothing that would consider him "clinically significant" but she said that we could repeat the test in 6 months once he's into 1st grade. 

We did. & the results were a little different, showed him clinically significant at school but neither Justin or I had him clinically significant at home & if you've been through the process then you know it needs to be present in two separate settings--it wasn't. We kept pressing the issue, not because we felt the test were wrong but because we wanted to ensure that Kaden was set up for success & there had to be something we could for him. That's when our pediatrician introduced us to a behavior therapist at KU Behavioral Pediatrics. We set up and visited on a regular basis. Justin and I were given some "light" reading to gain a better understanding of what might be going on in Kaden's head. We took another series of assessments, the Connors, and once again, he wasn't clinically significant in two settings---one, yes. Two, no. We continued to work with his teacher on figuring out a system at school and how to carry it over at home. 

Somethings we have implemented in the last few months---a daily report card at school in which both his teacher and Kaden worked together to assess his days. We had a marble system at home and offered a tiny (he thought it was big) root beer or sprite for good behavior days. We implemented a shower system for the boys---Kaden was born on an odd day, Logan on an even day so the date determines which boy goes first. 

Even with these modifications we still saw struggle but now we knew, from our research and speaking with professionals, this wasn't Kaden's fault. He wasn't choosing to misbehave or make poor choices, his little brain just wasn't working the way that it should. This broke our heart. We want the best for Kaden, in all things and it was tough watching our son struggle no matter how HARD he was trying. We kept pushing for answers.

At the end of school we received a call from his teacher and she wanted to give me a heads up that we will see a drop in his reading grade. I challenged portions of her reasoning, he's been at grade level or above for most of the year, in the top reading group and yet this was the first we were hearing that there was an "issue". & frankly, we had never heard from the reading teacher herself so we were very confused & a little disappointed as he wasn't tested for 3rd quarter because he was above reading level and testing isn't done on students who are above reading level. The system failed him. We failed him. So we continued to push. I pushed the teachers for more information, more details on why they felt Kaden's grade dropped. They stated more of what we already knew, he does just enough. Doesn't give he full effort. & when the report cards came home, it showed what they said it would show but it was still a pretty great overall report. Most parents would look at it and say, "whatever, this doesn't mean squat." We couldn't do that. This was an indicator that more was going on. That his behavior was starting to impede on his work which meant, we needed to push even harder to ensure we were doing everything we could. I had another call with his pediatrician and she referred us to the ADHD Clinic at Children's Mercy. She was certain we would be well taken care of here so I called that day. They told me that as soon as I got the paperwork filled out and the assessments taken (his 1st grade teacher kindly filled them out again for us) that we could schedule an appointment and that typically they are scheduling 2 weeks out but that they had received so many referrals since school had let out that we were looking at August, late August. I was bummed. Justin was bummed. We had hoped for some direction and advice before school started so we could hopefully start off on the right foot. But we would wait. This was where we needed to be.

& then one Friday in July I got a call from the clinic, they had a cancellation for the following Monday and the appointment was ours if we could make it. I would have moved Heaven and Earth to make that appointment so we took it. After 2 hours of meeting with a child psychologist and a MD, we had our answer. He still wasn't showing clinical significance when it came to life at home but being able to talk things through with the psychologist and explaining that even with what we have already been doing we are starting to see more and more symptoms. Honestly, it was making life at home a little more difficult too. Kaden was getting frustrated with himself, with us. We caught ourselves getting frustrated multiple times with him, with the situation in general. With everything taken into account his doctors felt comfortable diagnosing Kaden with a mild to moderate form of ADHD. I cried. But not for the reason most would think, I cried because we finally had an answer. It wasn't Kaden's fault for some of the behavior he was showing, for the impulsiveness. He wasn't conscientiously choosing to make the wrong choices. He honestly had no control over it.

Now we had a starting point. We could come together with a team of doctors and build a plan for him, to set him up for success. To help him, be the best version of himself that he can be.

Our starting point consisted of three options--behavior management, medication and then what they referred to as the gold standard, behavior management with medication. We discussed all three options in pretty good detail and then they asked what I was thinking and I was honest. I had to be. We've been doing the behavior management for awhile now and it just wasn't helping, at least not enough on it's own so I wanted to discuss the medication route in conjunction with our continued behavior management routines. I had worries though. I didn't want him to lose his sweet, loving personality & what do we say to him when he asks why he has to take this medicine. We talked about the side effects--he would be taking a stimulate and it would take effect immediately versus needing a few weeks in order to start working. He would also be on the lowest dose. They felt pretty confident that it wouldn't change how big his heart is and they gave us some great advice on how to talk to him about it. To be honest but keep it simple. To let him know his brain runs like a Ferrari but that he has brakes like a bike, so when he tries to slow down, his bike breaks just aren't enough & this will help give the power he needs to slowdown.

So this weekend we are going to give medication a go. I am hopeful that this will give Kaden what he needs to be more successful. To help him build relationships that he may not even realize are missing & for him to be able to take more control of his life. Honestly, it's exciting to be at this point, to have hope that your kid will spread his wings and soar, really soar.

I'm not naive, this is a process, we will have a number of follow up appointments to ensure that everything is tracking and working in the most effective way. We could have set backs where he experiences more side effects than the average person does and we will have to work through those but again, we are now moving forward and forward is so much better than being stalled out.

Now, some will question why I would write about this. Why I would let everyone know that Kaden had been diagnosed with ADHD. & therein lies the problem, education---there is a lack of REAL education around ADHD. The stigma that our son is anything but a good kid is completely disheartening. That Justin and I just let our son get away with anything, because we have to, I mean when he acts the way he does at times, must mean he has ZERO discipline and he walks all over his parents. & this couldn't be further from the truth. I know the kind heart he has. I have seen the struggle with controlling his actions and emotions. I can see the regret set in. This is a disorder. One that can thankfully be managed with the help of a team of doctors & the village that loves and surrounds Kaden. He's destined to do GREAT things, I am most certain of that & now, thanks to being in tune with his needs and being open-minded, we can help set him up in the best possible way to achieve success in whatever it is that he sets his mind to.

It's okay to talk about these things, it's important to.

Sunday, July 16, 2017

Happiest of 5th Birthdays Madison

It had been a few months since we had last been to Papa Tom's and Grandma Sara's house, Easter actually. We were long overdue & what better reason to head home than to celebrate a special little girl who was turning five---still not sure how that happened. 

We arrived after dinner on Friday & the boys were dying to get out of the car, you'd have thought it was like a 10 hour drive--it was 2. The first thing the boys wanted to do was check out Papa's new shed--he and grandma had decided to build a new shed next to the house and they were on the final stages of completion. Logan was having a little bit of an identity crisis as he decided the doggie door wasn't just for Jade and Samson but was just the right size for him too. & later, we found him in Samson's kennel--please don't fret, he crawled in there all on his own, I had zero to do with this. 

Since it was relatively late when we arrived we made plans to see Madison and Trenton the following morning. And although 3 months doesn't seem too long, it was long enough for this little dude to more than double in size & to begin crawling. 

We were planning a celebration a little later for the lady of the day but first we were off to spend some time at the pool. Aunt Kelly and Uncle Scott graciously let us take over their pool for a few hours. The boys, Blake and Leah jumped, flipped and dove until their heart was content. There are few things that make my heart as happy as seeing these kiddos together. 

After swimming we took a little break & then met back at Grandma Sara's and Papa Tom's to celebrate one special birthday girl. She was finally turning five and back to only be one year younger than Logan. She wasn't so happy when he turned six and she was still four so turning five was a big deal to her. It was, after all, a WHOLE hand. 

We were sad that we would be missing her birthday party but we were so happy that we still got to celebrate with her & stretch her birthday out as long as we could. & of course, that meant she needed a special cake too, so Leah and I got to work. We knew she was having a Trolls birthday party the following weekend and we also knew she loved Wonder Woman and all things Superhero girls so that's what we did. So our Supergirl, well she got a purple ombre cake decorated with pink frosting and sprinkles topped with her very own Wonder Woman. Happy 5th Birthday sweet girl. 
You are so very loved.