Whats On My Mind.

I am not sure if it's because Logan is closer to being a "toddler" now--that darn Baby Center catches you off guard when they turn one and send their Your Toddler-1 Year email--or if it was being around family over the holidays. Maybe it was helping one of my besties, Jennifer, find the perfect baby bedding for their little boy who will arrive in May. Whatever it is, I can't get it this thought out of my head…

I want more kids. Not right away. I want to enjoy the stages that Kaden and Logan are at right now but I certainly want more. For awhile I wasn't sure if I wanted more. I mean, things are pretty perfect with our two little boys. Kaden is our adventurous, wild and crazy child who has pretty massive mood swings but his great moments far out trump any of his not-so-good moments. Logan is our content baby. He takes everything in and is pretty much happy wherever, whenever. Why would I want to mess with something that is so great. Well, I'll tell you why. Family. And not just a small family-don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with a small family but lately, I have been dreaming of a big family. Not just 3 kids but 4 kids. I want total chaos. I want to hear giggling coming from bedrooms as they are suppose to be falling asleep. I want to walk into the house, cook dinner as a family and sit around a crowded table discussing everyone's day. I want the kids to look up to one another and to know they can look to one another in times of need. I want holidays to be full of family football games in the backyard and figuring out where we can fit one more chair so that everyone has a seat. I know it won't be all butterflies and rainbows and we will probably have more fights than we can keep track of but just like with Kaden, the good will far outweigh the bad. We'll have to give up some wants for some needs for our larger family--I still won't drive a minivan though--and we'll have to really start saving to send 4 kids to college but it will all be worth it. I am sure if you ask any parent what their greatest achievement is, they'll say their children. I know it's mine. 

With all that being said, there aren't any plans to have any more Souths running around this house for some time. We know we want Kaden to be in some sort of school whether that is preschool or kindergarden and we really want the boys to both be out of diapers. Could you imagine all the diapers around this house if they weren't! Don't get me wrong, it's a lot to take in--ask my hubby, I dropped this bomb on him tonight. He instantly Skyped my parent's to let them know how crazy I was and they kind of agreed but they also get it-my mom is one of 7! So today, it will be 4. Guess a few years down the road will have to look back and see if we are on our way...